You see, this is going to lead to insomnia

Friday I slept at around 8, and I was awoken at around 4 by an alarm clock. I had to do my SAT practice work for SAT academy on Saturday (oh what a coincidence…). Saturday I woke at 4, and then stayed up until the alarm clock rang again. And today I woke at around 1. My sleeping schedule really has gone to shit. Tonight I have to sleep early so I can wake at around 5:45 or so and get a ride from my dad to get to school at around 6:30. Why? So i don’t have to walk since my dad has just regained a job, working some 12 hour shift 4 days a week.

Listening to: MintJam- -Z- . Awesome song. Awesome band. Still looking for more of their work.

You cannot rape the willing.

Actually, yes

I hate my dad. I hate him, I wish his end. He falsely accused me leaving my computer on over night, the damn prick. All he heard was whirring fans, and he was fucking overreacting. It was only my mom’s computer that was on since she wanted to work on taxes. But the fact he would fucking jump to conclusions, I hate him. Fucking control freak.

On a higher notes, the Lunar New Year just passed. I had a good time on Saturday, when my parents wanted me to go to my grandpa’s for dinner…of course, I dislike my mum’s side….they’re boring. I spent my whole day in the library working on English crap until it closed, then I just wandered around town until I convinced them that I was going home too late for dinner. That was evil of me…and I liked it.

Sunday relatives came over for a change, so I couldn’t escape that. I played Gamecube all day with my cousin pretty much. That was nice.

I still have 5 history essays to do. I’m fucking lucky that Mr. Kuruc stretched out packet 30 to 3 days of review. O_O I’m so very lucky.

Listening to: Primus-John the Fisherman.

All of some

Wow, its the 62nd posting!

Nothing special about it though. I just wanted to.

My sleeping schedule is becoming very erratic. Sometimes I sleep from 2 in the morning to 7am, other times 6pm to 2 in the morning, and tonight, I plan on going from 8-4. I will probably grow up to have sleep problems…

I highly dislike Valentine’s Day. I hate those damn gigantic red balloons in shapes of circles/hearts. The girls have too many damn balloons. Blocks my fucking view. I also got a pity card and a pity candy. That sucks. People pity me. I hate being pitied. Unless I ask for it specifically. But I didn’t, so ha. That’s final. And now I return to my lair of evil to sulk.

Listening to: Nothing. I’m about to go to sleep.

C-C-C-C-COMBO BREAKER!

Thoughtblurb

My thoughts at the moment because I’m lazy:

11 essays due Tuesday. or so. Too many goddamn essays.

I got another SAT Diagnostic score returned to me. Still under my original 2020 score. My essay still scores a 5/12, like it has been for every single SAT like thing I have taken. I thought I did better on that essay too compared to previous ones. I think it’s cursed.

I just blew through another set of earphones. I’ve lost count of how many replacements I had to buy.

Still no DS Lite. *sigh*

I like walking in the rain. It feels oddly peaceful. I like the sound of rain hitting my umbrella.

Listening to: Yuzo Koshiro-Sorelle forti ~ euro pop mix. The name sounds Italian. Techno arrangement from apparently a bullet hell shmup. It’s nice. I guess it’s been a good day.

And fruit bats and orangutans and breakfast cereals…

Loathings

I loathe my English teacher. She deducts points because I have horrible handwriting. No matter what I do, I have not been able to change it. She gave me an F on a quickwrite because it is illegible. I only have so much fucking time to do a “quickwrite”! I hate that fucking bitch.

Yes, I am fucking stubborn.

Listening to: Nothing in particular. I’m actually doing this while watching an anime and evading my parents.

Victoly!

Bicycle Ride

For the first time in a million years, I rode a bike today. I’ve wanted to ever since I went to UC Davis and saw millions of human-on-bikes. I had trouble at first, but after a couple of minutes getting reacquainted with riding, I got on fine. I felt young again on the bike. I felt free, quick, insane.

I’m okay, I’m sure of it…

Listening to: Toe-1,2,3,4.

“It is filled with bunly goodness.”

I dammit all

I want to join the world at large. But being me, I know I can’t. I look quite stupid, if I do say so myself. And so, if I can join them, beat them. Even though its a long way up, and it’s quite lonely up there, it won’t really matter; I already feel lonely. Of course, by the time I go to sleep, I’ll want to join again. And get my hopes dashed to the ground by tomorrow. And the cycle of life continues.

Listening to: High and Mighty Color-Mizutama RAMUNE. Another undecipherable title. Whee!

Not feeling very good today
I think I’ll go insane
Everybody I will slay
And blood will be my rain