Sigh…

I suppose…everything will work out, and everyone will be happy, and I will be sad…but I suppose that’s for the best, it would be much poorer if I was happy and everyone else was sad…

But once more I still am my biggest obstacle.

Listening to: Nine Inch Nails-The Hand That Feeds.

Crazy…

That’s me! I spent last night sleeping in intervals of 20 minutes or so…alarm kept on waking me 20 minutes later, I kept on pushing it back 20 more minutes >>;. I wanted to wake at 10, but I suppose I was just too lazy. I had some really crazy dreams though…one with a dead baby. Except this one isn’t a joke, some guys kidnapped a baby, held it for ransom, then cut the baby’s arms, legs, etc. off. Then for some reason I was presented with pictures of the cut off bits…or was it the real thing in the dream? Disturbing though…going out of my mind! ><

The other dream had Kuruc in it, for some reason staying at my house. ¯\(o_°)/¯. Then he went out to terrorise some of the kids, and I hit behind my sofa to peer out the window to watch. But he saw my hair stick out and came back with a scowl…then left me alone as he went over to push down some makeshift house made of plywood that was being inhabited by Michael. >>;. It was a very interesting night in dream land….as well as a very unproductive one in the real world ><.

Listening to: the pillows-The Pleasure Song.

[12:37] “As far as I’m concerned, war always means failure” – Jacques Chirac, President of France
[12:37] As far as France is concerned he’s right.
(BTC, 247) ^_^

I swear, I wasn’t drunk at all

Today, I woke, in my bed, at around 6 in the morning, underneath my covers, wearing my jacket, without any recollection of how I ended up there. Tad disturbing there…

I dreamed about what I talked about a bit earlier in chat prior to losing memory of wtf happened to me: dreaming about being in an RPG. Well, like it, at least, immersive experience and all, involved Richard and I trying to get out of some complex with bad guys in it >>;. The place was rather familiar though, I felt as if I had dreamed it before, same exit and such. We got caught again though…really weird dream, and I think it ended poorly, because I didn’t feel all too great when I woke up from the ending >>;. Perhaps one day I can return there properly outfitted to clear out the place, aka having large guns/swords/combination of the two/other deadly weapons.
School is talking about changing block schedule or something? Eh, I like the block schedule, besides the little hurdle we have to jump for our college applications >>;. While AP Calculus AB I didn’t take it, I took it during the summer, I was able to get the stuff into my head (yes, the stuff I forgot now, but with a bit of practice I could remember the stuff), so year long is a bit too much for the class.

Listening to: The Outlaws-Green Grass and High Tides.

[19:38 39] z3ru11: ellison’s 5′8″ sword came >.>;
[19:38 49] z3ru11: that’s about three inches shy of my height
[19:39 04] GTEW234: or is it 3 inches shy of your length?
>>;

And so far…

So the new term/semester thing has started. Not much has changed, I suppose, except my government class has been moved to 3rd, so I have a off block in 1st. And I really need it to use it to complete my work…I am failing to work so badly >>). Classes have been hectic as usual though, plenty of work to fail…

The school has implemented a new policy…I don’t know the official wording of it though. It involves an bright neon orange net vest with the room number spray painted on it, and you have to wear it/have it on your person if you’re out of the class without a pass to the office or elsewhere. Allegations of similarity to prison have been made, especially because of the colour. Of course, since I don’t know the official wording, essentially I don’t need to wear it to get around…but of course, I am unsure. Once the official language used in the rule is found out though, I’m sure a loophole could be found >>;.

There’s also a sheet my parent and I have to sign, agreeing that I will uphold those school policies and such…not going to help any, I think. More trees killed, and if people didn’t want to follow the rules, they still aren’t.

I want to go to Pier 39 sometime in the future, apparently there’s some hat store there, I can possibly find one of those old guy tweed flat caps there…that would be kickass.

Listening to: Planet Venom, from Smashing…Live!, the orchestrated soundtrack to Super Smash Bros. Melee! It’s been a while…

wham bam thank you ma’am

Hallelujah and shit

Organised religion…it doesn’t really fit my tastes, I suppose. Christianity especially, doesn’t really appeal to me. Personally, I’d prefer not to sacrifice a day of my week every week for church or something, it just doesn’t go over well with me, I have other things to attend to that could better utilise my time, or so I feel. Not only that, I don’t really have much a control over when I blaspheme by using the Lord or Jesus’s name in vain…hell, I do that in churches all the time during events when I trip over something >>;.

Today’s Interact event was at such a church…once more, couldn’t control my mouth (so going to hell right here). It was setting up for a health fair in honour of Martin Luther King Jr.-”"Spend a day celebrating a dead black guy…while learning about infections that will leave your genitalia on fire”. Well, I didn’t really notice much on the topic of syphilis, gonorrhea, chlamydia, and the like, it was more on organ donation, to encourage it. I’m gonna donate my organs when I die or something, probably, but they’ll most likely be too worn from the abuse I heap on them and such >>;. Besides the liver, I don’t plan on drinking much if at all…

After setup, they thanked us with food, 6 pizzas, and we killed it all…I killed 7 slices, which was a good amount, but some guy at 11 slices, which was MONUMENTAL XD. Jokes were made about bread expanding with water. Moreover, there was sweet potato pie…I tried a bit, not too bad, although pie still isn’t on the top of the list of my favorite desserts…

I went to Brian’s house afterwards, played Halo 3 and Guitar Hero 3 there, enjoyed myself much, and now we find ourselves with no work done. MUST START OMG SHIT!!!!

Listening to: Social Distortion-Story of My Life.

“Your sword is stronger! You can feel its power throbbing in your hand!”-after getting the Golden Sword in aLttP…

Titled

Fell asleep before finishing work, and I had to wake up again…so it was NOT a normal sleep. Oh well, wasn’t a bad sleep at all, of course. I finished The Colour of Magic by Terry Pratchett in Gov and then went over the tests. English we actually had a “final”, but the essays felt absolutely horrible…so I have a B in English pretty much locked in. Gov, I have an 89.3…good god the suspense ><. Homework packets stand to bring me down…

Afterschool, I didn’t want to go home yet, so I went to D&D instead, had fun controlling an army of hill giants with Elvin, though we fucked up controlling them so badly…>>;.

Dad is nagging me about staying out “late”, and not going home. I want to shut him up ><. I don’t see how the people in Robotics are able to stay out to 8 and not have parents up their alley trying to cut their heads off.

Hurrrrr. Physiology final tomorrow, should be a breeze, and no bio final, so that’s cleared. After that, an Interact event…then we will see the future then.

Listening to: Queens of the Stone Age-No One Knows.

in this crazy insane world…it would be nice to have an constant anchor

Dead Meat

[19:32 50] alchemicalweap0n: Piglet.
[19:32 52] alchemicalweap0n: Hamlet.
[19:33 13] GTEW234: i sliced up a hamlet today ^_^

Might want to avoid that 5th paragraph there…if you fear…

Oh, crappy day, yet awesome day…@_@. Mother went straight instead of turning right, so I almost came in late, I actually left earlier than I did, although that was all for naught what with mummy futzing up the drive. I also forgot my MP3 player at home because I couldn’t find it, that sucked to high heaven T_T. I did have my bigger MP3 player that can’t hold a damn charge, but no headphones=teh fails…

Some guy from Heald College came, talked to us a bit about budgeting and credit cards, and I think I’m going to be screwed up the ass for the budgeting part…I have a very poor idea of what costs how much and shit. Of course, credit card shit sounds rather rough too, while I probably can control my clothes buying and shoes buying, games buying and food is another matter ><.

My English recitation was shit, I thought I knew the shit, but I had unnatural pauses, totally screwed me over good part…I did the “to be or not to be” soliloquy/monologue/lots of lines part from Hamlet since I had around 4 lines of it in my head already, no point in starting up in another spot, though I had some trouble stuffing the lines after “and by opposing, end them” into my end, which is crap for me. I seem to remember random shit better than memorising lines and such. I remember song lyrics though…maybe I have to put to music or something >>;. I also remember some short reading from Chinese school a long time ago, around 2nd grade, word for word, I’m pretty sure that I know the words to it 100%. I can’t write it out, but I can recite it…not that I would gain any benefit from it >>;. I remember putting some odd accent to the words I had to read from that lesson, after that day walking around Chinatown I heard some guy speaking in an odd accent (probably completely natural to him though) in Chinese, so I wanted to mimic that. And now that lesson is indelibly stuck in my head.

Physiology was the high point of the day, for once, I guess. We got to ravage a pig’s corpse. It was supposed to be “dissect”, but hey, first guy to manipulate the razor here, I totally cut into the pig when we only suppose to skin the pig first. Instead, I just totally cut into the muscle (we weren’t supposed to), so essentially we stopped giving a damn then. So we skinned off one side to see the side of the pig, we punctured some organ first so that there was red juice spilling out, no idea what it was though (blood? eh.). The muscle actually looked cooked and white instead of red and raw as I thought it would. I then proceeded to literally yank out the liver. I think we popped the gallbladder, bile came out. We then took out the stomach (cut that open, spilled out the acid), intestines (too lazy to unravel to measure the length, and the large intestine got cut…we saw literal shit), lungs (had white spots on it. must have been diseased), heart (very strong and hard. we cut it open, looked just like the muscle outside instead of the open chambers I expected), spleen, and kidneys. Time was starting to run low…so we started to get at the brain! We beheaded the pig (cut all the tissue away, wrench off the head), tried to skin it (cut at the top, peeled away skin), broke into the skull at top, and got to see a glimpse of brain. I also popped a eyeball, and all the juice came out, though I tried to dig it out, didn’t work. Had I more time, I would have totally cut out the tongue. Really messy affair though, what with the various bodily fluids leaking out the pig, we had to take out the pig and turn it over so that the open side faced down to shake out the juices. So going to hell right here, or get reincarnated as one of them baby pigs >>;. And I’m still laughing…

Well, yay for graphic descriptions of pig eviscerations, I’m now ready to embark upon the night…tonight, I sleep NORMALLY!

Listening to: Clazziquai-Robotica. Their new album is lovely stuff…

i wish we had a katana instead of a razor blade to cut the pig

Well, what did we expect now, hmm?

Oh but of course, I just HAD to procrastinate on my senior thesis paper, JUST like I did for my 25 page research paper for Kuruc, just like I didn’t complete it, just like I fucked it up…I really hate these bigass research paper-like things, I don’t seem to want to dive into the material, and I always hate the end…Plus the lack of sleep really REALLY sucks ><. I seriously need to go die or something…

7 pages and a bit of overflow. Crappy failed works cited page. I hate papers.

Lack of sleep? Not worth it.

And tomorrow we deal with reciting something out of Hamlet, I hate you Shakespeare ><.

Perhaps I’ll add more after my sleep.

Listening to: Clazziquai-Our Lives (Fpm Hyper Society Mix).

mr. hands, i dont even understand how it even fits in there without any blood seemingly in the video…@_@

Quiz Kids Redux

Ah, really shouldn’t be here…I’ve only half a page for my thesis…shit. But, it has been another long while since my last post, I suppose…

So, today, our little show of Quiz Kids aired to broadcast to the world abroad our total slaughter, and Menlo-Atherton or something’s complete pwnage. I, as usual, not photogenic, looked poorly, and did some really stupid shit…When I look back at our performance, some questions were SO easy, and yet we MISSED, ARGHHHHH! While we were above the others at the beginning, we began to fail in the 2nd round, and in the 3rd, completely were buried under a volley of answers from the opposition T_T. Reaction time really needs to be UPPED ><. And that interview bit sucked for me, because as we all know, nothing’s going to come of that but embarrassment, and nothing more.

And now…back to work…been a rather shitty weekend, I highly doubt this shittiness will lift itself from me.

And wow, it’s been 2 months since I got the cube…seemed shorter/longer/time’s a bitch!

Listening to: Queens of the Stone Age-Go With The Flow.

hehe, “weaponless”

Work Work Work

So, extreme procrastination brought me down by lots…Last day, woke up at 12, continued to procrastinate a while, and ended up with NO sleep at all. Woo…24 hours straight and over…I was pretty much falling asleep in all my classes, couldn’t get work done, slept for a while in 3rd block, didn’t know what we were doing after waking >>:) I pretty much just woke up, and have no work done. GAHHHH, off to work T_T. Thesis paper and Hamlet stacked up from English, and its a good amount of bio left…

Listening to: The Bags-Cavemen Rejoice.

hello dr. revolver how are you doing today oh you want to check inside my head? ok